Hard

So, my life has been a hard this past fall and into the winter. There are so many things that I need to talk about so, since I am home alone, this blog is going to turn into a diary for a bit. In September 2013, my Great Grandmother, Lucille Wright (Nana) passed away from Alzheimer's and Dementia.

Nana in her 30's

Nana on her 91st Birthday

I miss my Nana so much. She was a beautiful, strong-willed, kind, ball of fire kind of woman. She was a Christian through and through. She taught me how to sew, how to clean, and how to have fun. She and I loved reading and we both adored poetry. She instilled in me a love of learning. It doesn't matter how old you get, you always learn something new each day. Nana was the matriarch of our family. Nana loved to tell stories about her child hood in Kentucky and she was what made family so important to me. My family and our history is amazing! I've learned that we have some well known distant relatives, like "Devil" John Wright and June Carter Cash. They are both very distant cousins. My family history goes way far back and thanks to the wonders of Facebook, we now have a family tree and I am meeting new relatives all the time! I miss my Nana, but I know that I will see her again one day.   

Apart from Nana's death, I have gone to too many funerals for people I knew from high school. I graduated high school in 2008. It's only 2014. We are only in our mid 20's.  There has been so much crime, violence, and drug related activities in my area. Is it possible to be so sad and angry and confused that you just don't know how to show your emotions? I mean, things have gotten to the point where I just can't cry anymore and the reality of it is that you never know when you're going to die, so why put yourself in a situation where your chances of death are much more certain? I don't understand. There are things that are going on that make me want to rip my hair out because I know they know better. 

I am not just a person who writes papers and puts them on a blog. I want you know that I am a real person. I have thoughts and feelings. Most of the time when a person starts doing research on a topic, they aren't interested in the author's life, but rather in what they have found in research. Well, guess what? Life in general is one big experiment. Here are the steps to the scientific method, read them, think about it, and then tell me that life is not an experiment. 

Steps to the Scientific Method:

1) make an observation

2) ask a question

3)form a hypothesis

4) test the hypothesis

5) accept or reject the hypothesis

So, in life, we see what is good for humanity and what is not. We all have our own opinions. But, when we see something odd, we ask about it, we question it. Then automatically we judge it. We think that whatever IT is, is good or bad. So then we put it to the test. If we do something to it, how will it react? When it does react, does that reaction fit with the hypothesis we made? Sometimes yes, sometimes no. That's when we go back to the drawing board and modify the hypothesis. 

Being a Christian and a scientist, it makes me think a lot about life and about how things happen and why they happen. 

So, take it or leave it, these are my random thoughts and feelings.